Alter -

I thought about writing this. Part of me didn't want to. In my world, going 'alter' is something common. Going 'alter' means that an Ouun acquires so much dark energy its power increase almost in a 150 %. It's quite common in my world. When it happens, I become much more powerful, my eyes turn a wild red color and a rush of adrenaline runs through all of my body. All my dark energy channels open up and receive twice what they normally do. I become something superior. In Imbross, it's admirable to go 'alter'. It makes you almost invincible.

In the human world, the experience is not fun. It's not fun at all.

Dark energy comes from everywhere: sadness, anger, fury, hate, even within love you find dark energy. When someone cries, when someone fights, in the shadows, in the middle of night... there is always darkness. We Ouuns feed from it discreetly, sometimes humans don't even realize we're sucking them.... but we are.

I'll save the reason why it happened, but the fact was that it did happen.

You see... in the human world, going 'alter' is turning into a monster. In Imbross, due to the normal amounts of darkness in the air, everything becomes balanced. In the human world, without the protection of magic, going 'alter' throws everything off balance. It turns one mad, to the point where more and more dark energy is needed and one seeks for it.

Last night, I was walking through the streets when I felt myself starting to change. I couldn't control it. My one choice was to run until I reached home, if I teleported there was a probabilty I'd go alter even at a faster rate.

I didn't make it.

The one thing I remember is feeling incredibly powerful and happy, stopping in the middle of the street.

I think it was Eric who stopped me. His whole body was covered in blood and scars. He was hurt, but somehow he had managed to reverse my alter state. I asked him desperately what else had happened, but he couldn't talk to me. There was fear in his eyes, real, deep down fear. When I looked around me, I realized the whole apple had been destroyed, but not only that. About 5 police men, probably the poor souls who had come to 'stop' me, were dead around. I never minded killing anyone, but this time, the fact that I had done it so coldly (I remember their shouts, and how they empowered me) made me sick.

I made my decision. I'm going to move to Fantasia. I will not allow this to happen again. Losing control of my powers will never happen again.

Fucking humans. Fucking human world.