Being Stupid

I was so happy when I heard about the news: you're going to be Queen Ashley Vasser. Sure. For years, I had been hoping it would be so. I wanted to have that crown and legally govern Imbross without anything getting in my way.

Then again, thinking about it… sometimes we have just do things that we know might shock other people. Those people, who don't understand us, might think we've lost it. They don't really get it, do they? Haha. That's why I say, when they don't get it "I'm just being stupid".

I thought things over and I declined the offer of becoming queen… just yet. I asked dad if he could hold the crown a moment longer. He looked at my completely bewildered.

"I thought this is what you wanted, Ashley."

"I thought so too, Dad." I laughed. He didn't know what to say. I kissed his forehead, then left.

The thing is this. I just can't become queen at the moment. I care about too many people in the human world, at the moment, and if I took the crown, I'd never see them again. If I DID get to see them, it wouldn't be all the time I want to. One day, eventually, we must part ways, because my destiny is my destiny, and I want to become what I was born to be. Right now, I just want to be selfish, and stay with these kind people that have given so much.

This doesn't sound much like me, does it? Ha! Time changes how we think, indeed.

Ivan……. Eric… Caterina… Lucy… John… Richard… Veronique………. Rink. If I took the crown, I could no longer be with them. So right now… I've made my decision. I'll stay a while longer in the human world. Just for the hell of it.

I'm telling you, this is just plain ironic: I'm happy about the decision I've always made… and THIS, this is no exception.