Maybes

Draven has decided to join the puppy patrol. Though he claims it's not the big deal and that he's just doing it for the heck of it, I consider it a great opportunity for him to have some fun! Go, D! He's had his share of girls and true to his rocker self, he enjoys a good tumble every once in a while and/or after each concert. Now, he's running the race as puppy #3 and I think he'll get something out of it (something will definitely go into him). I shouldn't kid around with that.

Alex is next to me as I write this article. He's babbling about nature and music... And he's not even high this time. He's in one of these 'clean' periods.

Lin is cooking. Tonight it's sandwhich for the rockstars.

I turn to the TV and I see the billboards; I look at the computer again. I turn on the radio and it's there. Everywhere I listen to us. I wonder if it's bad that I don't feel as excited as my friends do. I wonder if there's something not going exactly according to plan.

Carol dropped by today too. She came to bring me a giant nutella cake to 'celebrate'. We went down to the studio.

Carol smiled at me happily once we were alone. "I'm so glad for you, cuz! I guess you've got hundreds and hundreds of ideas and plans!!"

She was so happy it almost made me cringe. She had always been the 'everything will be alright' type. However, lately, she was the 'everything is perfect' type. Nonetheless, seeing my cousin like that made me happy too; I did love her tons.

I laughed "Yeah well... I've got a few."

"Hey Ash..." Her voice dropped an octave and her eyes looked at me tenderly. "You should know he's here."

This time I really did cringe. "What?" I turned to her.

She placed both her hands on my shoulders. "And he's got big plans."

"He ALWAYS DOES!" Ah!!

"He's your manager." Carol patted my head "You might want to reconsider things from this point on." she opened her cel as she received a message "Ah! I have to go! Love you, cuz!" She gave me one last look. "I believe in love, Ash, but I also believe in staying focused. Remember that."

I bit my lips. Easy for her to say.

It was her brother coming to fuck me over.