Being MATURE

Ah.... Being a star requires an enormous amount of patience. In fact, you have to deal with so much stuff, nothing should amaze you. Unfortunately, it still affects me. Maybe one day Ill be bitch enough to shake a cold shoulder towards it. If only. Still, I think I've managed somehow.

SO. Rink has a new 'habit'. He likes to wash me. Yes. I'm not kidding... he likes to literally take anti-bacterial soap and slam it into my hand and takes great pleasure in it. Yeah... now that I think about it, he IS like "MO". Though I try to explain that I'm EXTREMELY clean and careful about my personal hygiene (never like him though), he loves to just wash me. In fact, two days ago, he practically pushed me into the bathing tub, placed a PINK ribbon on my head and started scrubbing me! Ah! Can you even believe that? I felt like a little girl at the hands of a PERVERT! (not that I didn't like it to a certain point, mind you), especially when he went into the tub and his clothing got all wet and he looked so sexy like that... was going to drive me crazy...

... AND THEN he places JOHNSON baby oil into a cotton swab and he's going to clean my BELLY BUTTON!? The HELL!?! T_T IS it just me or is that a total... Ah! I don't know, it's so embarrassing! Not to mention it's like... ayyyy! So PRIVATE! And HE TIED ME UP!

Okay, so let's face it... it's totally cute, and I'm totally in love with him, though I want to kill him at times... though that's pretty good too because I want to scratch him and... Ah! I was reading this story "Vampire Knight", and there's a part where X (don't like spoiling) says "I only want this man's blood"; and that makes me think about Rink. I guess I'm totally intoxicated. Is that bad? Hell no, I don't think so! Though, I'm the type of person that knows what she wants and generally, I know how to get it.

It feels like I'm growing and becoming someone along with him. I've changed a bit, and maybe it's because I'm understanding him a little bit more. Is that it? Can someone influence another with such strength? Maybe I want to be my best, maybe I want to revolutionize everything I know just for the sake of proving myself to him. If that's the reason then everything else pales before his presence and I'm that much stronger because he's there with me.

Then again, there are a lot of reasons why I express myself through music, changing the subject. Primarily, I want to make myself remembered, known, create something (music fusion) never listened to before, something that changes people. I want to prove myself, build my own label, make a new way among other artists. I want to supply a fresh, new, concept, through my talent. I want to be someone admirable, idolized, followed. This is the moment, where I thank my fans!! Right now the CD is PLATINUM!! :) Who would've thought, huh? Well, I have my fellow bandmates to thank for that too. They've managed to deal with this for a LONG time, and let's face it, we've had some luck, good representation, the talent is there, and good marketing (I have at least 10 portfolios dedicated to that with more than 1000 pages) :P

We're on the cover of X magazine! Yay! Go OVERDOSE! :)

About the Tour... We'll be starting it next year, though we have some concerts in the upcoming months. We'll be performing in certain stadiums (yes, THAT big). Official dates are posted in the website. Most of them are around the perimeter!! There's only one that's really far away, in NYC, but that one's at the end of the month. ;)

I'm going to Costa Rica on November! [Concert for a Cause- Human Rights- Interamerican Courts of Human Rights is over there, so it makes sense].

Anyways, that's news for now. Keep in touch! :)

-Ashes-