Hi Caterina.
I was going to apologize to you.
YES. I was going to A-P-O-L-O-G-I-Z-E for the things I said.
I was GOING to.
That's right. PAST tense. GOING.
Fuck YOU. REally. I didn't talk to you during those break-up days because I had a fucking agenda with you. I actually wanted to be someone who you could count on when you were down. But oh well, you never DO seem to notice that people DO try to be nice to you from time to time. AND YES, I SCREAMED TONS of things to your face, 'whiney princess' was not one of them, sorry BUT I DON'T USE THOSE KIND OF EXPRESSIONS. And the REASON I DID is NOT BECAUSE I HATE you, but BECAUSE I think there's so much more you can give, but you don't really care, do you? You don't REALLY want to be all that you CAN be. You just want to sit and talk shit... talk shit about other people, AND NOW EVEN ABOUT YOURSELF. Whao. Congratulations, you really DO know all your flaws... TOO bad you don't do ANYTHING about them.
So yeah. Fuck you, write all you want about me in your journal. I told you a lot of things, I REALLY AM SORRY I yelled all that, I DO CONSIDER you as a friend, as I've said before, BUT I REALLY can't believe you. Instead of talking to me, you just write all this crap about me. Well thanks. That's what you always do, don't you? You never talk things out or are honest with the people around, when you're hurt, you just sit in your goddamn journal. You should really be proud of yourself.
I'm not the big shot, I'm the first one to fall, and feel like shit, and I know tons about being alone and wanting to die, but you know what? I don't really care what I am, what people say about me, or about the fact that I might never be accepted. You know... I REALLY cared for you. Why would I write an entry about 'FRIENDS' tell you you're one if I didn't mean it. I thought you knew me better than that, but apparently you don't. Apparently you think something different of me too. I REALLY wanted to talk to you, and tell you that I was sorry, IN FACT, I spent the whole day yesterday THINKING HOW I WOULD APOLOGIZE TO YOU. ME!? What A WASTE OF 24 hours. Obviously, you don't WANT me to apologize, you just want to push everyone away!!
You want to be pitied........... OH but YOU Don't.... REally? I do pity you. Because you can't pull your act together. You can't seem to understand that VERONIQUE isn't THE HOTSHOT you think she is... does YOUR LIFE DEPEND ON HER OR SOMETHING? Why do you CONSTANTLY compare YOURSELF TO HER? She's AN ICE QUEEN. That's what you want to be? Yeah, that's someone EVERYONE LIKES. To THINK I thought you were so much more woman that Eric could handle, but you said so yourself, YOU Want them to be together. You're so fucking jealous you don't see how much YOU are. I REALLY DO FEEL SORRY FOR YOU. I wish you could see how many people really DO care. I really do. I'm a bitch. I'm sorry for having to BITCH at you. Next time, I'll just shut up and not say anything so that you think all is okay. Cause that's friendship right? Not saying anything... pretending we're the closest of people: doing peace signs and taking pictures. I missed the "Friends 101" SORRY. Next time give me a manual. Maybe I'll tell you some things you want me to say and you want to hear.
Worst part, is that I still have faith on you. I mean, still, FUCK YOU... but I really think you can pull yourself together and DO something. You write all this stuff about "The best damn thing" you NEED to write about it, you REALLY need to think YOU ARE the best damn thing. Maybe you are, maybe you're not, I don't care. Whatever you are, because you're not sure yourself, YOU'RE NOT, I'm still going to CHEER for you. Yes... as a matter of fact I will. Because I don't care if you write another entry where you insult me, or call me stuff I'm not, or just talk shit, I don't care... I'm going to continue thinking you're a person that's worth knowing.
You know what? No, really, you know what? Shove something UP YOUR ASS. Oh wait... there's already something there... a stick maybe? PFFT! Get yourself killed, or hang yourself. We all make mistakes. But we need to search for something to live... a PURPOSE. You're constantly looking for excuses for your actions.
Yeah. I really DO apologize: FOR BEING HONEST, for not talking in your Back, for WANTING YOU TO TRAIN SO THAT YOU CAN FUCKING SURVIVE. YOU'RE ENTIRELY RIGHT, I'm EVIL. I REALLY AM! HAHAHA! I'm PROBABLY THE ONLY PERSON WHO CARED IF YOU LEARN HOW TO DO AN ATTACK CORRECTLY! I'm PROBABLY THE ONLY ONE WHO WAS WILLING TO TRUST YOU, EVEN A LITTLE--
You are SO STUPID, Caterina. You really are. I wanted to be your friend, but you just fucked that up too?
I was going to apologize to you.
YES. I was going to A-P-O-L-O-G-I-Z-E for the things I said.
I was GOING to.
That's right. PAST tense. GOING.
Fuck YOU. REally. I didn't talk to you during those break-up days because I had a fucking agenda with you. I actually wanted to be someone who you could count on when you were down. But oh well, you never DO seem to notice that people DO try to be nice to you from time to time. AND YES, I SCREAMED TONS of things to your face, 'whiney princess' was not one of them, sorry BUT I DON'T USE THOSE KIND OF EXPRESSIONS. And the REASON I DID is NOT BECAUSE I HATE you, but BECAUSE I think there's so much more you can give, but you don't really care, do you? You don't REALLY want to be all that you CAN be. You just want to sit and talk shit... talk shit about other people, AND NOW EVEN ABOUT YOURSELF. Whao. Congratulations, you really DO know all your flaws... TOO bad you don't do ANYTHING about them.
So yeah. Fuck you, write all you want about me in your journal. I told you a lot of things, I REALLY AM SORRY I yelled all that, I DO CONSIDER you as a friend, as I've said before, BUT I REALLY can't believe you. Instead of talking to me, you just write all this crap about me. Well thanks. That's what you always do, don't you? You never talk things out or are honest with the people around, when you're hurt, you just sit in your goddamn journal. You should really be proud of yourself.
I'm not the big shot, I'm the first one to fall, and feel like shit, and I know tons about being alone and wanting to die, but you know what? I don't really care what I am, what people say about me, or about the fact that I might never be accepted. You know... I REALLY cared for you. Why would I write an entry about 'FRIENDS' tell you you're one if I didn't mean it. I thought you knew me better than that, but apparently you don't. Apparently you think something different of me too. I REALLY wanted to talk to you, and tell you that I was sorry, IN FACT, I spent the whole day yesterday THINKING HOW I WOULD APOLOGIZE TO YOU. ME!? What A WASTE OF 24 hours. Obviously, you don't WANT me to apologize, you just want to push everyone away!!
You want to be pitied........... OH but YOU Don't.... REally? I do pity you. Because you can't pull your act together. You can't seem to understand that VERONIQUE isn't THE HOTSHOT you think she is... does YOUR LIFE DEPEND ON HER OR SOMETHING? Why do you CONSTANTLY compare YOURSELF TO HER? She's AN ICE QUEEN. That's what you want to be? Yeah, that's someone EVERYONE LIKES. To THINK I thought you were so much more woman that Eric could handle, but you said so yourself, YOU Want them to be together. You're so fucking jealous you don't see how much YOU are. I REALLY DO FEEL SORRY FOR YOU. I wish you could see how many people really DO care. I really do. I'm a bitch. I'm sorry for having to BITCH at you. Next time, I'll just shut up and not say anything so that you think all is okay. Cause that's friendship right? Not saying anything... pretending we're the closest of people: doing peace signs and taking pictures. I missed the "Friends 101" SORRY. Next time give me a manual. Maybe I'll tell you some things you want me to say and you want to hear.
Worst part, is that I still have faith on you. I mean, still, FUCK YOU... but I really think you can pull yourself together and DO something. You write all this stuff about "The best damn thing" you NEED to write about it, you REALLY need to think YOU ARE the best damn thing. Maybe you are, maybe you're not, I don't care. Whatever you are, because you're not sure yourself, YOU'RE NOT, I'm still going to CHEER for you. Yes... as a matter of fact I will. Because I don't care if you write another entry where you insult me, or call me stuff I'm not, or just talk shit, I don't care... I'm going to continue thinking you're a person that's worth knowing.
You know what? No, really, you know what? Shove something UP YOUR ASS. Oh wait... there's already something there... a stick maybe? PFFT! Get yourself killed, or hang yourself. We all make mistakes. But we need to search for something to live... a PURPOSE. You're constantly looking for excuses for your actions.
Yeah. I really DO apologize: FOR BEING HONEST, for not talking in your Back, for WANTING YOU TO TRAIN SO THAT YOU CAN FUCKING SURVIVE. YOU'RE ENTIRELY RIGHT, I'm EVIL. I REALLY AM! HAHAHA! I'm PROBABLY THE ONLY PERSON WHO CARED IF YOU LEARN HOW TO DO AN ATTACK CORRECTLY! I'm PROBABLY THE ONLY ONE WHO WAS WILLING TO TRUST YOU, EVEN A LITTLE--
You are SO STUPID, Caterina. You really are. I wanted to be your friend, but you just fucked that up too?
3 comentarios:
Dude, chill, I was just venting.
... thank you.
Sorry I screwed this up too then. Well, guess there's nothing else I could say. I'm sorry. I'll get out of your hair.
And you're right about everything. So sorry again.
Lol. Ashley made Caterina cry. <<
Seriously, get over it. The both of you.
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