Bureaucracy

I *REALLY* want a break. In fact, I think I'll go back home for at least three days. I need to. But then again............................. I realize now, that my feelings are quite different to what I thought they were.

It sucks. It does.

When I came to the Rockefeller Academy and got together with the guardians, I made a resolution that I wouldn't care about anyone or anything. I had undergone so many situations and so much shit had happened to me, that I told myself: "RULE 1: You won't get involved". But I screwed up. My personality doesn't allow me to remain aloof, although I would love to. Don't misunderstand me, I'm not precisely caring or loving... but it matters to me. I'm alive after all. If I didn't get involved, at least slightly, then I'd go against the very nature of my being.

Fact is. I would love to leave, because I need a break and I hate dealing with other's peoples problems and I have enough problems myself to be listening to more shit. But I won't leave, because I care about Caterina and what's going on through her head. YEAH CATERINA, I CARE ABOUT YOU >> Even though you're the source of all my headaches and I'll eventually kill you myself, but nonetheless.... I'm not leaving because you need me, and well..........

o(-_-)o

ANYWAYS.

I've got involved with these people. Even Draven is taking me easy and telling me it's alright. Actually he laughed and told me it was typical that I always got into everything. That's the reason I met Kaine in the first place, because Ashley V-- Delton ( ^^ --- Draven will kill me for that one for sure) was always involved in just about anything. They're just important to me right now. Though, at the end, things are what they are, and in the last very minute, the end will justify the means.

And then... there's that Stupid Drama King ("DK"). Turns out I now report to the Student Council. Yeah... HOW DID THAT HAPPEN?

Well... I talked to the people in my grade.... I talked A LOT WITH THEM... they thought I had great ideas, suddenly someone said "WE WANT HER TO REPRESENT us"... suddenly everyone was agreeing with the things I had suggested previously. They were telling me that I had the looks and the brains to represent them, and above all the revolutionary streak everyone desired and well... I can't exactly resist.... being a leader. Next thing I knew, the grade was voting... and all of a sudden... I was class President.

And so... DK became kinda my boss. Well, in any case, he'll TRY to be my boss... not that he'll ever be able to order ME around.

By the way. Caterina is going to understand me on this one. I don't really know how I like my chocolate sticks. I definititely like them big and I wouldn't mind if they had cherries on top. Then again, I like anything that has to do with chocolate. I don't really know. In the case we were mentioning, THAT's dark chocolate: it looks delicious and ready to bite, but when you bite it it's just sour, don't you think? I prefer them Milk chocolate, and if they're filled with caramel even better!! YUm! Well, anyways, there are chocolate sticks everywhere. No problem.

However, I THINK I'm in trouble. Because this dark chocolate stick is very special and maybe I really REALLY would spend all my money just to buy it. I don't know. It's quite tempting, but maybe I should look for a Ferrero Rocher chocolate stick, I'm sure it MUST exist.

DAMN. I can't stop THINKING about it. HELP ME.

-________- I want chocolate.